اگزیستانسیال

being alive is so sober coded, I need to be drunk or high to pass it.

like you may see me and talk to me, but I've already murdered you and myself in my head and I have no idea wtf are you talking about.

I do exist in human functions and have connections with them, but from the bottom of my heart I wanna kill myself in front of them.

mfs really out here unable to function without constant pressure and a lowkey urge to die

I wanna be a jellyfish. no heart, no brain, no feelings, no pain. just blub blub blub.

2:08 it's as bad as it seems. I'm losing sleep over the screams. I'm away for it all. god help me.

1:27 I never wanted anything more than a room. some place to lay my head, a place where I'd have you.

I wanna leave it behind. stained carpets and all the things we hide, I'm gone for it all, in my mind.

idk might fuck around and then walk into a forest with thick fog and never return.

I may make it to another day, but I left a chunk of myself every day, and I fear for the day that there's no more me to leave behind.

every night, I lay in bed and realize how not okay and miserable I am.

3:47 now I run from all my truth away.