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can we just kill ourselves yet or not?

idk but it feels wrong, feels like i'm fooling myself or otherwise y'all are so fucking good in acting that you deserve an Oscar for it.

why is it so dark in here when there's light everywhere else? what does it takes to see the world the way it is, or maybe the way it isn't..?

looking at the brightness coming from my window while thinking about the absolute darkness of my future makes me insane.

i don't have any joy in living.

2:39 and once again, i'm back to where it all began. to horror and despair.

don't go. please, don't go. i hear your voice:

no please don't go!

واقعا دور از ادبه که من هر روز طلوع آفتاب رو میبینم و تبدیل به خاکستر نمیشم.

تنها دلیلی که هر روز صبح به طلوع آفتاب نگاه میکنم اینه که شاید احتمالاتم اشتباه نبوده و واقعا تبدیل به خاکستر بشم‌. شاید هم نشم. بهرحال امتحان می‌کنیم و انسان جایزالخطاست، اما خون‌آشام‌ها؟ فکر نکنم.

idk how should i feel about this. i barely even know how can i feel.

i'm sorry but it's the best for me to stay in my room and do not spread my disease with others. (i convince people to kill themselves)

4:06 who's gonna save us? i don't wanna die now. i just can't escape, stuck in a dark room, who's gonna save us?