My Depression Notes

What is your purpose in life? 🤔

Its been a month and 13 days today. I wish I knew you had such limited time so things could be different between us. I understand that you were going through a lot and I'm sorry I'm late to get that now. Its been hard for me to let you go, but what hurts me most is that you're gone forever. Every morning when I wake up, i wish God had forgotten to wake me up. Its all an endless nightmare. Your cloth that I own was slowly losing your scent. I saved it tho, I sealed it in a bag.I just dont understand why it had to be me out of many people out there who meet and are left to be some part of each others life. I'm not and I'll never be. I tried to move on, and I still am but I'm stuck back in our days together. My mind keeps replaying your laughter and hugs and our plans for our future. And everytime I remember you, I feel my insides break little by little. You were the most amazing person anyone could find and I was lucky to be a part of your life. I hope we'll meet in another life.I love you and always will. Rest in peace. #shared

people with nice families who are reliable and love them really can’t understand what it’s like to not have that level of support. i’m not complaining, it’s just a kind of advantage that is rarely talked about bc people assume it’s universal—it isn’t

Never mock a pain you haven’t experienced.

If people bring so much courage to this world the world has to kill them to break them, so of course it kills them. The world breaks every one and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry. Ernest Hemingway - A Farewell to Arms

In a society where so many of my most progressive friend groups claim to be sensitive to mental health and depression, I feel like they just don’t get it and I’m happy for them that they don’t but please just stop. Stop suggesting what to do to feel better, stop giving me cool remedies and schedules for self care. I didn’t ask you for a solution, I only asked for companionship. Stop trying to fix something you can’t understand because it only makes me feel worse that those things don’t make me feel better because you think they’re full proof or worse that I am just lazy or not doing enough for myself if I don’t do them. I feel like it does help to tell people about how I’m feeling but then feel pressured when they say things like this. And then I feel even worse because I am this depressed blob to be around and that’s not fun but it’s where I’m at right now. #shared

🥺Reasons not to leave this world🥺 🖤your soulmate will be lonely.💔 🖤all those foods you are yet to try🥺 🖤the places you haven't been to yet, the world is full of hideen gems✨ 🖤all those songs you haven't listened to yet, I know you've been wanting some new music.🎵🎶 🖤your future kids need their parent❤️ 🖤re-reading your favorite book ✨ 🖤re-watching your favorite movie✨ 🖤seeing the smile on your kids face as they score a goal in sport or get one of those certificates. 🤍 🖤falling asleep to the sound of rain whilst you're cuddled in warm blankets💜 🖤watching the sun set or rise on the beach😍 🖤you haven't met the person that makes your heart stop❤️ 🖤you don't know what it's like to walk up that stage and get your degree/diploma you worked so hard on.✨ 🖤the tatoo you've fantasized about since you were little, is it on your skin yet?🤍 🖤having one more stranger compliment you 😊 🖤when was the last time you had a water balloon fight? Remember how fun they were?🥺 🖤seeing your favorite artist perform right in front of you✨ 🖤getting in touch with people you've lost contact with over the years.❤️ 🖤making someone laugh🤍 🖤overcoming something you've struggled with 💙 🖤laughing so much tears form in your eyes and your stomach hurts.✨ 🖤experiencing new things💜 🖤having that dog look at you 😍 🖤and lastly, because I and so many others love you🥺❤️ ❤️🖤✨❤️🖤✨❤️🖤✨❤️🖤✨ #stay And talk to me if u wanna be friends I luv u💙💙💙💙 👤 • 🎖 201 • 😇 8.8 🕖 5/23/2021, 6:18:30 AM

I Do Not Think People Understand How Stressful It Is To Explain What Is Going On In Your Head When You Do Not Even Understand It Yourself.

do you just like that wake up & realize that Being a good person don’t get u loved, It gets u used.

I heard this speech one time given by a really talented girl who had breast cancer I can't remember her name right now but what I do remember is her saying " when people see me they see a bra half empty when I look at myself I see a bra half full" 💔

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Once You've Been Hurt, You Get Scared To Get Attached Again, Because You Always Thinking Everyone Love You Will Stay End Up Hurting You.