Space-Guard's Artchannel

I think it's time to break the silence here, why nothing came for almost 4 months and nothing will come for the next time. My Life turned to hell. My depression is back, stronger than ever. I can't pass one single day where I'm (almost) crying, thinking about what I lost through the past half year, how so many things are drowning me. I just had another job for 6 weeks, until I had two mental breakdowns, because of massive stress, unfair pay, and even need to endure abusive lanuage from our "beloved customers" Since then I don't have any money, everybody just wants it from me, and milking me dry. Well, even my parents want my rent. I lost my best friends, when I needed them the most. They are all just gone, I am sleeping all day, and just hope that I don't wake up anymore. All my joy of being creative and doing art for other people just faded into grey. I can't feel any happiness, there is no sense in my life anymore. I don't want any condolence, PMs or something else. I am sorry for this black hole I turned into.