CONSTELLATIONS

A special post for Adnan Bashaib. Thank you, really. Thanks to you I had become the person that I am today. Thanks to you I get to know myself even more. Thanks to you, I believe in the word love again. You will forever live inside my heart and it will stay that way. I love you, Kak, I always do.

Hello, everyone. This is Stella speaking. This might be too sudden, however deep down in my heart I had always wanted to say, thank you sincerely for all of you especially those who had made me happier than before in this world. Yes. My roleplay life couldn't be even better without your company. I am, and always will be extremely grateful for that. I need to go now, I have reached the end of my journey and Stella Dorothy Estrella is bidding you guys a goodbye. Thank you for giving me plenty of reasons to be grateful. Thank you for everything and I will also apologize because I knew I was not a good friend to each of you either. I'm sorry. You guys be good, alright? Don't forget me, just like how I would never forget each and every one of you. Remember, whenever there's a "Hello" there will always be a "Goodbye." Take care everyone, stay healthy and be happy because you deserve it. Once again, I am sorry for everything that I did wrong. Thanks for accompanying me. ❤️ With Love, Stella.

⠀⠀ ⠀   ⠀ 𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚠𝚛𝚊𝚙 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚍𝚛𝚞𝚗𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚊𝚛𝚖𝚜 𝚊𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚖𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒’𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜 𝚝𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚎 𝚜𝚕𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝𝚕𝚢 𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚜 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 one night around 12 o’clock, the time where you have not yet to complete your work. this lady sends you a moving portrait of herself looking oh-so impatient, bided her time for her lover. you couldn’t help but to look at her heavenly attractive features, as she released a soft whisper saying, ❝ come home faster, please. and if you give me what i want, then i’ll give you what you like. ❞ with that face, you must have known the fact she is craving for you. she thirst for your attention, longs for your affection and by affection it does not mean going all the way. what she meant was for your arms wrapped awfully tight encircling her waist just as you kiss her gently, leaving imprints on her alluring body. she seeks for your touch that will send shivers down her spine. becoming desirous upon the idea of having you right on top, and it peeved her to wait for her man to come. 𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚝𝚎𝚕𝚕 𝚖𝚎 𝚒’𝚖 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚘𝚛 𝚕𝚒𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚊𝚢 𝚊𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚒’𝚟𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚊 𝚋𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚗𝚎𝚠 𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚎𝚕𝚢 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚖𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚒 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚒’𝚕𝚕 𝚐𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 ❝ when you turn off the lights, i get stars in my eyes, is this love? so don’t turn on the lights i’ll give you what you like and if you don’t give me what i want, then you’ll get what you deserve. ❞ the second you came home, the excitement is unbearable you are unable to hold it any longer. the night lasted long as you both ended up making out with the company of a dim light amidst the dark, lubricious red room. thenceforth, the pair slept soundly while lying alongside one another ⠀⠀ ⠀   ⠀

Nananana checkk

⠀⠀ little do you know she was born to fly, little do you know she ain’t your prisoner nor is she the one who is worthy to be locked up in a cage called Love when the things that lies inside were nothing compared to the title itself. nonsense. is it love when all that remains were twisted words, hideous crimes covered by shadows? is it love when you underwent suffocation, trapped and skimpy for there is no one to set you free from desolation? is it love when all that’s left are flames from your fire, false hopes getting higher, broken promises to trust harder? is it love when the scars hurts and the chains holding you down only to prevent you from making an escape? is it love when your happy ever after were just empty words? everything is just goddamn bullshit until little birdie decided to let itself free. and it was a desert on her heart at the time she fell apart. gathering all her tears saying, “no more glasses and see our stars, no more bruises and battle scars.” 𓅩 ⠀⠀ ⠀   ⠀

大丈夫、私も自分自身が嫌いです。