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Susan Sontag, As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh

" 'Cause you waited and watered my heart 'til it grew You just grew a little smarter, too So I don't blame you If you want to bury me in your memory I'm not the girl I ought to be, but Maybe when you tell your friends You can tell them what you saw in me And not how I turned out to be" Literally fascinating, amazing, poetic, and everything. The struggle and despair in those lines are just *chef's kiss* Starting strong with how her partner grew "smarter" to know what's better for them only when she started to be a better version of herself, how patient and loving they were to gently water her heart, passionately waiting for a flower to grow and as the seasons passed by, the partner started to grow tired of it, and knew that it'd be smarter to go buy a flower. So they left, just as the flower was starting to bloom. What I love about this piece is how she's desperate rather than bitter. She knows they had the right to leave yet she wishes that they could love the idolized persona she made for them, not the withering flower. She wanted them to keep the version of her with potential in their memory. Not how she "ought to be" and later in this song, she says "not the way I am" and we see the development, how she has come to terms with the fact that this is WHAT SHE IS. a withering flower, this is not something she has become, this is her. And what her partner liked was nothing but a mere delusion she made for him to like.

"I look for a picture of you To keep in my pocket But I can't seem to find one Where you look how I remember" Literally🤯🤯🤯🤯 one of on favorites I love how she describes strong, intense feelings using such little metaphors that most of us don't even think about that much, the fact that she connected the change of her feelings and the person to something as physical and real as a picture is just.. Amazing. How she still loves the person to the point of keeping a picture of them in her pocket, but they changed, so did she. And no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't find any pic that matches her perspective of them or the "old" version of them. How she looks at their photo and doesn't see anything, rather than a stranger who embodies someone she desired and loved. This terrifying feeling of "well, if they always looked like that, maybe I didn't know them at all. Maybe it's my problem" YA3NI JESUS CHRIST HOW SMART CAN SOMEONE BE

One of mktski's qualities is not inflating emotions for dramatic effect and it's fucking amazing and relatable

"On sunny days I go out walking I end up on a tree-lined street I look up at the gaps of sunlight I miss you more than anything" A LOT OF people think that this is just a random imagery to make the song relatable and general buy this is what yearning is, this is what missing someone who's long gone feels like. It's not hysterically crying every night but instead it's looking at the trees and realizing that this person likes this exact shade of green, it's the yearning you get while doing the most mundane, boring things then remembering that person isn't here anymore and each time it shatters your heart more. She's literally describing a situation where someone is literally JUST WALKING but they can't help but to yearn for their loved ones for they're in everything, they're the trees, the sunlight and the streets. This person sees them in everything. And that's what a realistic, smart expression of missing someone is

I don't think anyone gives enough credit to mitski, she's an amazing lyricist and almost every line her holy fingertips wrote is a peice of art so I'll be listing some and just fangirling over her because why not

Warsan Shire

I do have a lot of cool friends who are nice enough to listen and comfort me but I don't want to talk about it; not wearing black and crying my eyes out 24/7 because someone died sure will feel somewhat fake to people, I don't want to talk about it unless I do all the "systemic" grieving procedures, and if I did, it'll feel real me which is not good for my fragile mental health sooo

Do you want to talk about it? Do you have someone to talk to about it?