E C I I P S E 🌘

I don’t want it to ,that was my final decision i wasn’t lying when i said it but i’ll be lying if i say i hadn’t thought of it its lingering there between my thoughts but i’m sure of my decision and this was how i wanted it to be over for good.

They keep saying what if anything changes in the future?

I really appreciate the people in my life but i can’t show it enough when i’m down so you just need to be sure that if i’m not with you now it’s not because I don’t to be.

Waiting for a long time for everything makes you impatient not otherwise.

In order to make it easier just step outside knowing everything would be possible so no need to over analyze it and what’s important is not to waste something present with a dying memory you’re fooling yourself it’s still alive.

It’s scary to feel like you need to put yourself back there not sure if you should wait more to be sure it’s all over but really it’s never over ,it’ll be memorable forever the feeling with it will change tho.

Come to think of it ,it wasn’t all bad at least i had all the feelings ,fantasies and love for myself and that felt warm even if it was one sided all along.

فا لو كنتو تتسهوكو مش حنقوللكم غير انه الي يتسهوك علي شي ينبلى بيه😂

Letting go of someone you loved for a long time is leaving a part of your soul behind.

هو اني توا نحاول نفهم هذا شن قصدكم بيه😄

Confessions are hard when they come from deep ,longtime thinking or when they’re real.

When you feel like doing or saying something go for it unless it hurts someone else.

While in reality none of us even thought of creating the prison because it was always there ,we were going to end up there no matter what and if not in the current one it would be in another. In other words no one chooses to lock themselves up we’re always forced to then brainwashed to think that we always wanted this and it’s our fault somehow and when it comes to getting back out there we can’t decide it cause the door will be open when we’re ready to walk out and what follows is in our hands .

And maybe we had the key all along but didn’t choose or had the courage to walk out of it as they say.

Or maybe we’ll always stay behind the bars of that prison while decorating it to feel cozier ,pretend that it was our choice to create the prison from the beginning?

We create the prison then lock the door on ourselves and just like that we can’t go out unless we find someone or something that can unlock the door back again.

Talking about your feelings with someone might make you feel vulnerable but writing them down feels okay.

When you decide that you’re done with everything and you want to be alone someone will appear and ruin your plans.

When shutting your emotions down you’ll feel everything is tasteless like if you’re under the effects of a cold but when getting back to reality everything tastes bitter that you’d be willing to cut your tung just to not taste anything again.