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Seven was never enough I wrote this song with blue To keep the secrets just for me, or maybe for two I gave away my wish While I was drowning in the sea of emotions Confession of love could be a twist for us Counted to seven, again I fell back to you Tried every number, but nothing got me through Every way I tried, every move I made I couldn't leave, I couldn't stay Being lost, being insane is what I've always fought against Letting go of what I love Has quietly become my flow all the time So take my hand loyalty, like how I breathe Counted to seven, again I fell back to you Tried every number, but nothing got me through Every way I tried, every move I made I couldn't leave, I couldn't stay Counted to seven, and now it's eight There's no more numbers, and we're not the same I'm lost in dreams, it's just me and us I try, I hope, I wish, I trust

Fuck this life, I want me back Or just want the time to pass so fast Every night's like a heart attack And I'm tired of pretending that I will last Fuck these thoughts inside my head They keep me up when I need to rest Every dream turns into a dread Every breath feels so possessed Fuck this pain, Fuck these scars Fuck the way I fell apart Fuck your name, Fuck the stars They never got me where you are Fuck the girl I used to be She feels like a stranger now to me Fuck the tears I couldn't hide They kept falling everytime I lied Fuck the nights I stayed awake Waiting for to call my name Fuck the hope I couldn't kill It drags me further up the hill I keep running in circles Trying to find a way out But every road leads back to Everything I scream about Fuck this pain, Fuck these scars Fuck the way I fell apart Fuck your name, Fuck the stars They never got me where you are Fuck this room, Fuck these walls I hate that I still hear it all Fuck the songs, Fuck the world Nothing feels like it did before Fuck this life, Fuck the past I kept waiting for it to pass Now I'm staring at the glass Trying to find myself at last