𝖤𝖼𝗅𝗂𝗉𝗌𝖾𝖽۪ ܼ ݊ ׄ𝓈 ִֶָ

اون روزی که بقیه شدی، میفهمی رفتارم با بقیه چه شکلیه.

تو آرام‌آرام از من دور شدی؛ نه آن‌قدر ناگهانی که رفتنت را بفهمم، نه آن‌قدر آهسته که دردش را نفهمم. یک روز دیدم حرف‌هایت کوتاه شده‌اند، نگاهت دیگر در من مکث نمی‌کند، و آغوشت بیشتر شبیه عادتی‌ست که هنوز ترک نشده. من اما هنوز همان آدم بودم؛ با همان دلِ ساده، همان شوقِ دیدنت، و همان امیدِ کوچکی که هر شب می‌گفت شاید فردا دوباره مرا مثل قبل دوست داشته باشی. چه تلخ است وقتی کسی را از دست نمی‌دهی، اما هر روز کمی بیشتر از دیروز از قلبش بیرون می‌روی. من نرفتم... تو فقط دیگر نماندی. شاید دردناک‌ترین قسمتِ قصه همین بود؛ اینکه پایانِ ما با رفتنِ تو اتفاق نیفتاد، با تمام شدنِ دوست داشتنت اتفاق افتاد. من هنوز دوستت داشتم، درست همان‌جایی که تو دیگر حتی دلت برای ماندن هم نمی‌لرزید.

he he he🪙 I don't think you ever realized how much I was trying to keep us alive. I kept reaching for you, while you kept pulling away. I kept waiting for your messages, your attention, your affection... while you slowly stopped looking for mine. Maybe you didn't stop loving me all at once. Maybe you just stopped caring little by little. And I was too in love to notice that I was becoming the only person holding on to us.

I kept holding on to a love you had already let go of. I kept choosing you, even when you stopped choosing me. The saddest part wasn't losing you. It was realizing that I was fighting for something I was the only one trying to save. You became distant, and I kept finding excuses for your silence. I called it a bad day, a busy week, a difficult time... anything but the truth. The truth was simple: I was still falling for you while you were slowly falling out of love with me. And somehow, I became a stranger in the heart I once called home.