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Love? Love is like that first pack of cigarettes to me; bitter, burning, and extremely addictive

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تا ابد عاشق کسایی هستم که ریکت میدن

صورتت هرچقدرم خوشگل باشه ، تو ذاتت مشکل داره.

They know me by the names printed in old Hollywood magazines; names that smell of expensive perfume and illustrious events. But they have only seen the surface of me; the blonde girl with the smile that seems to have emerged from a classic black and white film. They do not know that this golden color of my hair is actually the flame of a quiet destruction California nights always smell of regret; the smell of the sea, gasoline and burnt tobacco. I sit in the dark corner of that neon-lit cafe; where the blue and red lights dance like open wounds on my face I hold my cigarette between my trembling fingers. Each pack is like an appointment with death; quiet, deep and silent. Its gray smoke, like the ghost of memories that no longer exist, wanders through the heavy space of the room. I watch it; I watch how my life, just like the tip of this cigarette, turns to ash, bit by bit They say beauty is a gift; but for me, beauty is a silver blade that scratches the edge of my soul. I am the girl who, at the height of her brilliance, seeks the darkness My blond hair, when wet in the midnight rain, is like golden ropes that pull me into the depths of this cruel city I am not here; I am in the thick smoke that has created a distance between my red lips and my cold world Love? Love is like that first pack of cigarettes to me; bitter, burning, and extremely addictive. What you know turns you to ashes from the inside, but you can’t take your eyes off the glow of its flame. I’m waiting; waiting for the moment when all these neon lights go out, all these sparkles collapse and I, in the ultimate darkness, find myself with only the ashes of my memories and the smell of tobacco left behind Because I know… we were made only to burn; to leave all that we are in the height of beauty as a fading memory, like the smell of perfume on a rainy night, in the dark.

مچکرم الان ارومم

منم همیشه حس میکردم زندگی هیجان نداره اما لطفاً به لباس خریدن و استایل کردن فکر کن دوباره امید به به زندگی پیدا می‌کنی دختر 👛🛍🗝

اگه چنل دارید بفرستید برام جوین بدمم

وای نمیدونید دفعه قبل داشتم گریه میکردم 😭

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