overwhelmed

I feel my heart break apart bursting into pieces under all the secrets, when shadows fall and darkness calls, save me from myself and alleviate the pain, i Hate that i feel like i'm lost that nothing ever change, i'm tired of looking 'round rooms where everyone's a stranger am i doomed to make the same mistakes and put myself to shame? like everything is just a game and you left me alone in this game to be crushed by all my sins.

What's the point of living in the dark? trying to stop the bleeding of the heart, tell me, why have you forsaken me? only death will ever set me free take this pain away caught in a circuit no means to an end i'm trying to quiet the voice in my head, lord knows I've tried, every day is a struggle to deal with the pain erverything's changing, but I stay the same

You sold me out to save yourself and I won't listen to your shame

‌ ‌ ‌ ‌ ‌ ‌ ‌ ‌ ‌‌ as always I keep my tears inside 𖤝 ‌

Trapped in a war inside my own skin im numb to the pleasure but still feel the pain, If I showed you my soul would you cover your eyes? voices in my head again beating me in a war I can't win and I don't know myself anymore as I walk through this valley of shadows and death I curse not the wicked, i praise not the blessed If i told you the truth you'd beg me to change i don't want to live so calloused and frozen, ugly and hopeless i don't want to live forever i keep it all inside because I know the man is everything but kind.

My heart became a small dry stone, without your love I feel alone your eyes are like a flaming fire never thought that I could love so long.