ginger chateau

"you handled it so well." no, i didn't. i went insane. lost my spark. i bled in silence. i shattered alone. and wore a smile that lied better than any mask ever could. i cried behind closed doors. i questioned my worth. i screamed into pillows so no one would hear. i carried weight that wasn't mine to hold, and pretended it didn't crush me. i didn't handle it. i stumbled through it. i broke, rebuilt, and broke again. i showed up when my soul wanted to disappear. i survived it- not because i was strong, but because i had no option. and i still could not finish it..