bullshitting to all

it's all you guy's fault. if you be a little more kinder and act a little bit more mature, then all that butterfly effect will reach me and i'll feel a little bit more happier. but no, you all wanna see me suffering

i get it, i'm getting pms, but why am i feeling so much.

and with all these stupidity, everybody induce me with it

and why are so many girls so fucking stupid?

they talk with dignity, honor, praise the world with respectful eyes, love each other like they mean it. yet when it comes to shoving the shit, it's all 'one's own' world.

every case laid out here in my mind and i don't deem majority of them valuable because they're just so fucking stupid. and people do nothing other than doing stupid stuff.

so much logic, so much knowledge, so much maturity only to fumble in basic of tasks. they used to say "Your son couldn't solve these easy questions, but look on the brighter side, he solved all of three hard questions correctly." I ask you teacher, why was i going with this case? why did you not warn me about the loss of stepping over easy tasks like that?

i am starting to abhor every little detail about myself, from the look of eyes, to shape of my skull, to that one strand of hair which won't sit down. every thing i do, makes me hate myself even more, including habits like eat, sleep, rest, move, think. why am i the way i am, can't i be just normal and live a life decoding what to wear for tomorrow instead of holding my hand in pain because it feels like my brain is gonna burst my skull out at any given moment

this much self awareness will be the death of me

i fell in love in October

new favorite band probably

god, i hate being a emotional human.