bullshitting to all

Every new political theory, by whatever name it called itself, led back to hierarchy and regimentation. And in the general hardening of outlook that set in round about 1930, practices which had been long abandoned, in some cases for hundreds of years—imprisonment without trial, the use of war prisoners as slaves, public executions, torture to extract confessions, the use of hostages and the deportation of whole populations—not only became common again, but were tolerated and even defended by people who considered themselves enlightened and progressive. - 1984

u think charisma is smiling and nodding? wrong charisma is staring blankly when somebody is talking, and you go "Hmm" now they wonder either you are a genius or a serial killer.

niggas acting all unsenstive and shit nigga that ain't no word. nigga shut up

this became so irrelevant that i did not even remember this was up. 3 mon 10 days. i won't write about it anymore, it's just a nuisance which gets in my mind.

how does it feel like? "to be seen"?

i'm not really the early riser kind of guy, but this stress makes me wanna sleep early.

this country has made me an OCD freak, everyday i wake up with a fresh mind, fresh breath, no headache. somehow by night i feel like i would have shoot myself if i had a gun beside me. head bursts like crazy, every time i touch something or somebody, the constant itch in my brain tells me to wash my hand. my eyes can't sustain the stress so it springs out, red and wide. i cannot even stop myself form keeping all my items in particular orientation. every book, every files, every diaries lined up in proper symmetry and even one anomaly stings me. i think drinking water might work, to ease out my eyes but all it does is make feel full, and lose my appetite. it's not the kind of depression of i've ever dealt with, this is totally new, i don't even know if it's depression or elevation. all i know is i'm going fucking mad meanwhile my brain is thinking about the pen cap is slightly off the linear grid.

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