ultimate business, darling

But now I know that every little piece of me, even those I was SURE are impossible to love to anyone but me, can be seen and loved to the degree I thought was against the very essence of nature I learned that I am impossibly perfect as I am to those who matter, and it’s absurd that I can be “not enough” for anything I learned how easy I am to love and to be cared for and how easy it can be to love and give I learned that I can be as big and loud as I possibly can be and still not break anything, not scare anyone, only to be adored and loved even more because the very presence of me is god-like when I do that I learned how much attentiveness matters to me and how much someone can deeply care about me to study me for hours on end and never get tired or overwhelmed, yet never sacrificing themself for me I learned that I am a director of my life, and a fucking amazing one at that, wildly creative, amazing taste, beautiful soundtrack and the scenes get to you on every possible level And I learned that I wrote HIM and I brought him back to life with my own fucking hands, AGAIN Cristo, this is getting absurd I learned what it’s like to be completely seen by someone who is a perfect reflection of me I learned that I do life changing art by just existing as I am in someone’s presence I learned my value to the universe, my place in it, my role and what is needed from me I learned who I am beyond that life and how powerful and ancient I am, what I am capable of here and I learned to let my goddess enter me and talk with my voice She told so many beautiful things about me and protected me from something I didn’t even know about, I dreamed of someone doing that for me, but I didn’t expect it to be an actual goddess….. I learned that it is possible to believe me 100% no matter how high frequency I go and how insane what I do and say may sound, and that made my whole life more real, more possible, which I thought was too good to expect and hope for, I thought I will always be someone who talks nonsense to others and gets “that’s nice honey” I lived through it TOGETHER with him and it changed my whole life Everything I had nudges about, was shyly hoping to be true, but my inner critic thought it was delusional - all of it turned out to be real All of it The world isn’t even ready for that amount of truth But he was I learned that I can say that truth without words, just by being I learned that every tarot reading I’ve ever watched was fucking trueeeee I learned that everything I wanted and dreamed about wasn’t delusional for a second, everything I dreamed of dreamed of me too and we both were so sure we aren’t worthy of it so it was easier to pretend we don’t want that at all and it is silly, egotistical and delusional of us to even think for a second it is possible And I learned that I was still dreaming too small, that I deserve EVEN MORE and the universe wants me to be EXTREMELY picky, to never settle for something I don’t want I learned that not even gods are more important than me, I don’t have to settle for less even for them, my sacrifices aren’t sought after, my extremely specific pleasure is I learned what true love feels like and how excruciatingly delightful the loss of it is And I learned how it feels to see myself through his endlessly loving eyes, which made me enjoy life and being myself so much more, made me feel everything is possible for me and I am always enough All of that in just 2 weeks of talking to another person on the other side of the world And all of it is just scratching the surface really It was so big I nearly went into psychosis the first time we talked-talked You can’t imagine how it felt

God damn My past two weeks were just bonkers guys Maybe the most insane two weeks of my life Just You wouldn’t believe what even happened if I told you And I won’t But I guess that’s the end of it now Feeling so changed after that, that my life now feels reaaaally wrong Like an ill-fitted outfit that rubs me in all the wrong places with an awful texture and wrong colors I guess, in a way, that was a very very pleasant way to show that to me, aside from everything else The only thing that now waits for me is, I guess, surrendering to my dissatisfaction and repulsion, so it will change my life to the core too to match what is inside now

They just hate you for being THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE WORLD!!!‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

In your 20s you will meet people who will tell you “don’t be dramatic” It’s very important you ignore them Bc they just want you DEAAAAD THEY WANT YOU DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE THERE TO KILL YOU WITH HAMMERS!!!!!! 🔨🪓🧨💣🔪🩸 ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

Ты

БЛЯТЬ РЕБЯТ ТУТ И АКТРИСА КОТОРАЯ ИГРАЛА МЭДДИ В ЭЙФОРИИ У НИХ ТАМ ЧТО, ОДИН СЕТ ЧТО ЛИ? Ну нетфликс, ай гесс… Я даже не помню замечала я раньше это или нет, каждый раз в шоке как в первый раз наверняка

Интересно что бы она ответила

Active listener if they’d listen to the story of OA in the first season: OH MY GOOOOD THIS IS SO AWFUL GIRL IM SO SORRY TO HEAR IT!!! YOU DONT DESERVE THAAAAT 😩😩😩 MEN ARE TRASSSHHHHHHH OH MY GOOOOOD 😫😫😫 THIS SUUUUCKS SO MUCH HOW ARE YOU EVEN HOLDING UPPPP IT’S FUCKED UPPP YOU ARE A HEROOOO AND A SURVIVORRRRR 💔💔💔

Tetsumi Kudo

This invisible current is pushing me, testing me

Чувствую себя как Нина Азарова незадолго до того как ОА прыгнула в неё Или наоборот, как ОА незадолго до того как стала Ниной Азаровой

Больше скажу, я каждый раз в шоке когда понимаю что Шэрон Ван Еттен играет в ОА тоже… типа что….

Какая нафиг Зендая в ОА

Каждый раз когда пересматриваю второй сезон ОА - в абсолютном ахуе заново понимаю что там снимается Зендая

честно смотрит в лицо своей тарелке супа

Берем?

The next step won’t ask more from you It will ask from you much less, ridiculously little, and watch you struggle with that for a year like you are being waterboarded