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this january was a shithole of a month for me, probably the worst in years, suicidal tendencies—not thoughts, when i'm this low i don't think about committing suicide, i plan—returned for the first time in three years (also it happened to be a lot more literature on this topic then i did find back in 2018 and there's much more painless, easily performed and proven ways to go; for better or worse) anyway, somehow i made this track, which i'm actually really proud of (not now maybe, 'cause i spent so much time with it that i cannot feel shit about it), or at least i really like it (or i did, for a long time, maybe until now) gender studies — assisted suicide 12:42 power electronics / rhytmic noise / bedroom noise recorded with crown sz-16 cassette player, random cassette from a thrift store, elektron model:samples, boss fz-5, death by audio soundwave breakdown, zvex fuzzfactory, electro harmonix little big muff and tascam dr-05 (thnx schghrrkhschs for posting this) give it a listen

MAGMA FLOWS IN OUR VEINS BURNING OUR HEARTS

𝚔𝚛𝚢𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚝 𝚑𝚊𝚜 𝚙𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚊 𝚜𝚖𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚎𝚕𝚎𝚌𝚝𝚛𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚌 𝚖𝚞𝚜𝚒𝚌 𝚘𝚗 𝚜𝚙𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚏𝚢. 𝚎𝚗𝚓𝚘𝚢 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚠𝚎𝚍𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚍𝚊𝚢, 𝚍𝚞𝚍𝚎𝚜!! [𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠]

𝚖𝚎𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚊𝚛 𝚖𝚘𝚘𝚗 — 𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 𝚋𝚢 𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎 [𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚕𝚎] 𝚙𝚖♫ 𝚕𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚘𝚗 𝚜𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚞𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚊𝚗𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚖𝚙!!

depression simulator 𝚋𝚢 𝚘𝚑 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺 ...𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚕 𝚏𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚜𝚢 𝚘𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚜 [𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎] [𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑.𝚒𝚘] [𝚏𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 @𝚌𝚑𝚛𝚙𝚜𝚑] !!

stuff 𝚋𝚢 𝚘𝚑 𝚠𝚎𝚕𝚕, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟺 ... '𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚊𝚙𝚎 𝚊𝚗𝚡𝚒𝚎𝚝𝚢, 𝚒𝚝'𝚜 𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚎𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗’ [𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍 𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎] [𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚒𝚝𝚌𝚑.𝚒𝚘] [𝚏𝚘𝚕𝚕𝚘𝚠 @𝚌𝚑𝚛𝚙𝚜𝚑] !!

𝚝𝚘𝚍𝚊𝚢, 𝚠𝚎'𝚛𝚎 𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚠𝚘 𝚜𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚊'𝚜 [@𝚌𝚑𝚛𝚙𝚜𝚑] 𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏𝚌𝚘𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚟𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚘𝚐𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝙸'𝚍 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚜𝚑𝚊𝚛𝚎 𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚏 𝚍𝚎𝚜𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚙𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝚐𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚜, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚝𝚊𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚎𝚡𝚝𝚜 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚋𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚗 𝚜𝚊𝚜𝚑𝚊'𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚕 [𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚔] ₚ꩜ᵂ

𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 𝚗𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝, 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚘𝚗𝚎!! 𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚙𝚑𝚒𝚌𝚜 𝚋𝚢 ꩜𝚜𝚟𝚍𝚙𝚘𝚗𝚢, 𝚜𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚢 @𝚔𝚛𝚢𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚕 𝚏𝚛𝚞𝚒𝚝 [@freepunchinbuttz]