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《Will it ever get better?》 A question so beyond everything I could ever come to comprehend or truely grasp, A question that I longingly wish to know the answer for but unfortunetly had yet to succeed, A question that almost drove me mad countless of trillions billions millions of times, A question that always rendered me speechless whenever someone would foolishly ask, A question that appealed to me to be so goddamned confusing, irritating and beyond sad, A question that I had yet to mature enough to understand the depths of, the complexity behind, A question almost all human beings at all generations had atleast once came to ask, A question that I had yet to know the answer off regardless of how desperate I was, A question, that I sincerely and from the bottom of my heart, aspire to know the answer of, someday if at all. @asinneradairy🥀

[_Sucide constantly on my mind_] I am drifting, I am edgying towards my doom, I can't wait till I cross the brigde of death, As I am tired of waiting for my misery to end, Tired of holding on to a crushed, broken ship, Tired of losing my sanity, my ultimate demise, My clarity nowhere to be found in this sea of deceit, Tired of losing people who were never meant to be in my life, Tired of being mistreated, misjudged, violated, Tired of wiping others tears while mine runs like an ocean, Tired of upholding other peoples expections over my health, Tired of feeling worthless, without a penny to spare, Tired of always depending on the people that never cared, Tired of all the fake affection, pretty lies, & mocking smiles, Tired of living in a world more concerned with net worth over a genuine self, Tired of the society that we live in, The place that traps all of me the good bad or worse yet, Tired of feeling like a trapped animal without freedom, Tired of hating on the things that used to make me smile, Things that used to make my day full of laughter, delight I wish I could turn back the time to a place I used to love, To a place I used to cherish.. I wish I didn't became like this! I wish it all turned different but I guess it couldn't be helped, Because in the end it; was always meant to be. #someofmysucidalthoughs🙃 @asinnersdairy🥀

I wonder if someone is listening to us now like r u there when we do creepy shit or I now chillin' on our backyards after burying someone? Hmm, I wonder.

I remember once when I though I was normal it was the funniest thing when I think back 'bout it now, lill' old days they were.

2k22 and I am still m****d up like M a n The Fuck?

I feel like I am slowly but surely going straight to hell ;) lol

Man do I feel like giving up..

Why is life so shitty tho, like why does it make us feel like an absolute disaster?

Don't give yourself excuses; You can, end of story.

Let your laughter mock the world. Let the sound reverberate in their minds, haunt them 'till death. Let them wonder why your sadness sounds like joy and the crunch from your broken pieces remind them of music. @heartlesswoes