Our Side of the Story

When are we going to grow out of our social anxiety please? It’s been decades already.

This was a great listen! Also a short and precise answer for everyone asking whether it’s safe to date during your teen years.

There’s something about fellow Christians saying “የአባቴ ልጅ" to you.

መንገድ ላይ ከብዙ ግዜ ቆይታ ያገኛችሁትን ሰው "ውይ! ከሳሽ" "ትንሽ ሰውነት ጨመርሽ ደግሞ ምንድነው ሸንቀጥ በይ እንጂ ጂም ምናምን ለምን አትገቢም?” That typical habesha ግልምጫ for a spice. “መልክሽ ጠቆር አለብኝ በሰላም ነው?" እንደው የህይወት ጥያቄ የለባችሁም? Don’t you have the inflation to worry about? Or some dream chasing? Kids to raise? A debt to pay? የሚባሉ እና የማይባሉ ነገሮች መለየት በጣም ቀላል ሆኖ ሳለ የዳገት ያህል አክብደነው ለምን ራሳችንን ማስተማር እንደሚቸግረን እንጃ:: ወፈሩ? ከሱ? ጠቆሩ? አማረባቸው? ደግ እንኳን ሆነ! Personal questions as such are only reserved for personal people. If you are seeing someone after a long while እንደ ጤነኛ ሰው ጤነኛ ሰላምታ ስጡ "Hi I haven’t seen you in a while, I hope you’re doing okay” ማንን ጎዳ? We all know how hard we’re having it. There’s school to worry about, going to work everyday though you have no motivation to, the people in our lives and the emotions we have to deal with, parents, family drama, the long list of dreams you want to accomplish, facing the truth about yourself and who you really are, the self doubt and all the days you feel inept. Just treat everyone with the same kindness you want to be treated with. “I just want to be left alone today” እንል አይደል? Maybe someone’s having that day too. በተረፈ if people come at you with this immature questions feel free to do whatever you please with their faces, you have my blessing <3

I want this weather all year round.

Go show some love :)

Bring back the days where we used to be excited about Harry Potter, Diary of A Wimpy Kid and Geronimo Stilton.

Someone recommended me to read My Secret Garden by Nancy Friday. It’s basically about the fantasy (sexual) of women. See I don’t really have anything to say to the women in the book but the intention it was written with. Which is to glorify fantasies and how they could frost marriage. Lol ገና ብዙ ጉድ ስለሚጠብቀን I’m not even slightly moved by this. I didn’t even get a hundred pages in to stop reading it. It was poisoning my brain .

Since I want to talk books today, it’s been a while since I took a break from reading anything with the genre of romance. One reason was there’s this book (a few books actually) by Penelope Douglas that threw me off. It was just so shameful and disgusting. In short, it was porn but in a book. If I ever become an author, lord forbid me from becoming one who promotes incest, sexualizes women in every possible way and portrays men as nothing but sex craved animals.

Andddddddd

Not because of some poetic traumatic experiences but for the responsibility it brings. Not knowing what to do with their trust, heart and love. “You’ll learn along the way” someone said and yeah.

Few things come close to being as scary as becoming too important to someone.

I’ve missed Addis!

እንደማንኛውም ሰው ህልሞች ነበሩኝ ከህልሞቼ ሁሉ ትልቁ "ደህና" መሆን ነበር...you know waking up with a grateful heart instead of one filled with dread and hatred. Looking at myself in the mirror and smiling because I appreciate who’s staring back at me. ከሃቅ አልርቅም ካልኩ ትልቁ ህልሜ ላይ ተስፋ ቆርጬ ነበር...እውን የሚሆን መስሎም አልተሰማኝ:: Everyday felt like carrying a pile of the world’s burden and everyone living in it. The days took everything out of me, the years made me hate my existence and God. ሰው "እንዴት ነህ?" ተብሎ ሲጠየቅ "ደህና ነኝ እግዚአብሔር ይመስገን!" ሲል የእውነት እቀና ነበር:: እንደዚህ ደስታ ፊቴ ላይ እየተነበበ የምፈነጥዝበትን ቀን እያሰብኩ ጉጉት ልቤን ይሞላብኝና "ውይ ለካ ተስፋ ከቆረጥኩ ቆየሁ" ወደራሴ ይመልስኛል:: I’m not going to say a miracle happened and I was suddenly okay. No it took forever. It took so many “You got this debs, just one more breath, one more day” So many days being ruined with panic attacks and grief. Tons of “ምነው heal ባይደረግ ቢቀርስ" “To hell with growth” “I don’t want to do this anymore” But we’re here, with God, my people and me. ደህና ነኝ!