solitude

“how are you?” the most useless question in a conversation. no one who asks it actually wants to know the answer, and no one who answers it ever tells the truth.

faqat sen nasibingni kutmayapsan, sen ham kimgadir nasibsan. seni ham kutishmoqda…

qiyomatda haqlar ado qilinadigan kun bor. bu dunyoda kechirilgan, unutilgan yoki aytilmay qolgan narsalar ham Allohga ma’lum. shuning uchun birovning qalbiga ham ozor berishdan oldin, bir kun o‘sha haqqingiz haqida so‘ralishingiz mumkinligini unutmang.

don't talk to me about loyalty. your behavior already spoke for you.

the dunya is like a shadow. if you try to catch it, you will never succeed. if you turn your back on it, it has no choice but to follow you.

don't run back into the burning house, from which you escaped just because you were cold outside.

you only fail when you stop trying.

what you afraid of losing, when nothing in the world actually belongs to you.

...turmushda kuzatilgan eng qiziq narsa nima, bilasizmi? -ikki xil xarakterli (fikrli) insonlarni birga qilib qo‘yishi! shunda hayot yurarkan. bir xil fikrli insonlar birga bo‘lsa, ba’zida zerikib qolib aksariyati (hammasi ham emas) ajralib ketar ekan. ikki xil bo‘lsa, ularni xuddi chiroqqa o‘xshatishadi: plyus va minus bo‘lishi kerak, bir-biriga urilgan holda chiroq yongandek... taqdirga ishongan inson esa o‘ylashi kerak: “nega Alloh taolo menga aynan shu insonni nasib qildi?” demak, buning ham bir hikmati bor. balki o‘zim istaganimdek bo‘lganida, hayotim bunday bo‘lmas edi. Alloh iroda qildi va bo‘ldi tamom...

-Anvar Ahmad ustoz.

the scariest version of me is not angry... it's silent. Because silent means you'll never get my effort again.

you can’t control what happens in this world. you can’t control how people treat you. you can’t control what tomorrow brings. but you can control where you put your attention and effort. make your intention a sincere niyyah. make your effort a form of sincere ibadah. do your best, then leave the rest to Allah.

-odamlarni yo‘qotishdan qo‘rqasanmi? -endi yo‘q. -nega? -chunki senga tegishli bo‘lgan insonni ortidan quvishga hojat yoʻq, u o‘zi qoladi. qolmagani esa, hech qachon seniki bo‘lmagan.

being a sleepy girl with a busy life is so hard!

-what is your weakness. -i feel too deeply. even the smallest things can hurt me. -then what is your strength? -the smallest things can make me happy.

i’m a worrier, i overthink everything, and yes, sometimes i cry. but giving up? that’s not me. so let me cry for a little while — that’s all i need. after that, i’ll pull myself together and figure everything out.

may one day i walk past a flower shop with a smile on my face and flowers in my hands.

the most comforting sentence in islam: if you come to me walking, I will come to you running.

it's okay to lose people, but never lose yourself for people.