overwhelmed

And I want you to know that if you never want to come back to me and I can't find someone as dear to me as you, I'll have to kill myself in an ugly way, and I really need someone to love because it's hard to love myself when my soul is so stained and I want someone like you to take root in my body...

But you know... our love is lovely to me even when you don't value me, and when you prefer others to me I think that one day you will finally understand who your true lover is and who is willing to be by your side in all situations, tolerate all your stupid and annoying traits, and love you. But maybe you will realize it too late and lose me...