Sage (t1/2)

And its not like i have been ignoring these issues on the contrary i have been doing everything i can with the assistance of a specialist to “fix” whatever is going on

I have always lived through the eyes of other people, so much so that i feel like i forgot what im supposed to be

Sometimes i think i want to cold-turkey my meds just to feel something but i know what that looks like from an outsider perspective

I dont know which is better To experience constant numbness and zero emotions or to feel everything at once like my heart was shot by a cannonball

That is when i do eventually experience something new, its almost always boring Im such an easily bored person and i dont know if its the meds or me I have been on them so long now that i dont know how to differentiate I dont remember what excitement feels like

I feel like i experienced everything that is to be experienced, although i have barely scraped the surface But this constant feeling of emptiness no matter what i do still lingers

Hmmmm

i have done what i wanted to do and it was anticlimactic, nearing on disappointing

I dont know when it started but i feel like i have been waiting my whole life My elementary school years i was waiting for highschool and then college and then for a job and then to get out of that job and to find another job and then to travel Just waiting for something to happen but nothing ever really happens I dont know exactly what im waiting for

Frank castle

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The guitar work is crazy

Jumpscare