Sage (t1/2)

هية غيرة هوة عربي ممدبري يشوف واحد bilingual كدامة ينبعص

Its insecurity and jealousy هالسالفة صايرة اقل بهواي من جنت اني طالب قبل جانت اسوء بهواي

- الرساله ؛ What are your thoughts on the English illiteracy rate of خريجين مدارس عربية Not just that, but their teasing/bullying towards anybody invested in English culture or the language?

مدرسة عادية

- الرساله ؛ انت خريج مدرسة عادية لو متميزين؟

سويت هاي الصبح بس ماش شكلها

I live in a cage of my own creation And i have thrown away the key And forgot i was a prisoner

But its just always a tight squeeze or a dead end

And its not like i have been ignoring these issues on the contrary i have been doing everything i can with the assistance of a specialist to “fix” whatever is going on

I have always lived through the eyes of other people, so much so that i feel like i forgot what im supposed to be

Sometimes i think i want to cold-turkey my meds just to feel something but i know what that looks like from an outsider perspective

I dont know which is better To experience constant numbness and zero emotions or to feel everything at once like my heart was shot by a cannonball

That is when i do eventually experience something new, its almost always boring Im such an easily bored person and i dont know if its the meds or me I have been on them so long now that i dont know how to differentiate I dont remember what excitement feels like