Sage (t1/2)

It starts around 1:48 and continues throughout the song Getting more extreme and more intense

Some people ask me why i take three medications every day and i should leave my meds and that i “dont seem that bad” I posted a while ago a song where i remembered what my bad episodes sound like without my medication The background noise specifically

Do you want me to send you a paper that explains my illness in detail? Will you even read it? I dont want to do it in fear some of you who think they might have an illness may read it and make it feed into what they think they have

I dont know much i need to explain my illness to be understood I am not trying to rely on it to justify any negative behavior that comes out of me, i am very flawed i understand that and i am self aware of anything that is with me I am a grown adult and i act like one both here and in real life To simplify it as much as possible I can not control my emotions, so i distance myself Anyone who knows me knows i talk about my condition and explain any distancing that will occur from the start, and that i dont want any help, nor do i need any intervention Consider it educating the other person because apparently everyone views mental illness as a quirk more than a life debilitating condition I dont want to have to give this lecture every few months and this is gonna make it the third time I dont want a relationship, nor sex I dont want validation or reassurance I dont want help I can take care of my own shit and have been my whole life, i basically raised myself What i want is to be understood Im not a magic puzzle that needs solving

Or morning

I slept like shit last night

I feel gross

Ugh

I wanted to wear a blue shirt But like i work in karabala and its that month of the year And people will make sure to let you know you’re not dressed “appropriately”

Im wearing all black today

I hate demanding people

I know this song but unfortunately im not a big fan of Olivia Its a good song tho

- الرساله ؛ https://t.me/allnewsage/3914 the word "less" reminded me of this song https://open.spotify.com/track/1LmRAxdZUEM9xc2wNivy1y?si=6TrI2caoQiGegsrfOH0iig

Wtv

I wish i can care less

I feel like i haven’t aged in 3 years i just dress more like my age these days