⛧Donekio⛧

+tell me dazai Why is it you wish to die? _ let's turn than question around Is there really any value to this thing we call living?

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I wear ma strength like a crown, polished, untouchable, admired from afar.. but no one sees how heavy it is when I’m alone. I laugh like I mean it, like nothing inside me is breaking, like I don’t go quiet at night just to hear ma own sadness breathe.. They call me different, too intense, too distant, too much— but they’ve never stood inside ma storm long enough to understand. I am tired in a way sleep can’t fix,.. angry in a way words can’t hold, and lonely in a room full of people who think I’m perfectly fine. And then there’s u the only silence that doesn’t scare me,.. the only chaos I crave. I hate how u heal me like something I should stay away from,.. like a beautiful addiction I know will ruin me but still, I choose u over peace. After so long, I finally slept not because the world softened, but because somewhere, far from me, you existed. Like u were hidden in ur own quiet castle, behind trees I could never reach, close enough to feel.. but never to hold. U feel like something dangerous, the kind of addiction that knows ma name. I’m afraid of what u’ll turn me into, and still…. I lean closer. U were magic. Magic, magic, magic not gentle, not kind, but the kind that pulls u in and doesn’t let u leave..