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burnout of the century

when you’re already having the worst fucking week of your life completely drained and mentally exhausted but technically nothing "major" happened so you feel like you don’t even have the right to be this overwhelmed. like there’s no single big thing you can point to and say "this is why i’m falling apart" it’s just a thousand tiny things piling up at once until you’re barely holding yourself together and nobody can see the weight of all of it.

bc women's bus me mard seats pe baithe hue h and the women are stuffed in here like kachra

this internship made me wakeup at 4 and travel 30 kms by auto functioning on 3 ghante ki neend

love doodh muesli

read the second volume. reviews latee

my mother loves reminding me of the fact that i am a loner unlovable bitch

weak

im exactly what mama said i was

pouring all the ugliness I felt today onto a page so I can feel it to the bone when i finally earn the time to. masking is a race I can win,just not in front of the mirror And this wasn't a problem before I started carrying it everywhere like my shadow knowing I can never outrun it I have my ways of dealing with it but I want most of my experience of passing hours to be free from delayed action hedonic distractions and unwanted overanalysis

and im done with the concept of friemdships.

i’m so tired of feeling like nothing ever works in my favor. like the second i let myself get excited about something, the second i let myself hope, life pulls the rug out from under me and put me six (hundred) steps back and i’m tired of pretending it’s okay telling myself that these things happen and i just have to deal with it because it doesn’t seem to happen this way to everyone else. i watch things fall into place for people so easily while i’m constantly trying to pick myself back up and it’s become extremely exhausting now. i don’t want to believe that i’m the problem but when disappointment keeps finding me every time i dare to expect something good. it gets harder not to wonder if maybe i’m somehow the reason nothing ever stays in my favor.