bullshitting to all

end it forever

are you really gonna be okay with this? being the smaller one? if no then fucking start acting differently and if you still cannot do it then kill your self immediately because i don't wanna live in a body or obey a brain who doesn't do what i wish to

fuckkkk why am i still asking questions when i know everything for certain. fucking learn to accept and keep your head low if that's what you think you should do. never look up and keep listening to whatever others say, don't ever talk back and live a life in pity because you're a fucking scumbag, who doesn't care about anything at all but just yourself.

am i really that worthless? am i really that pathetic? do i really look so pity in everybody's eyes? so fucking ugly? i thought i deserved everything when all i deserve is a fucking middle finger up my face.

oh god how can i show myself happy when all i am is just a lump of sorrow?

the island is too far away and i'm too tired to swim. it's time i realise i need to just starve myself on this lonely tip rock

i dont think the depth this time will be so much, because i can't even see the shore yet,

i'm back to regressing now, no wonder it took so long for me to reach here again, many people objected but i kept suppressing it, now I'm reflecting my whole and realised that I'm just a shallow, mindless entity roaming on the streets pretending to be satisfied. fuck.

festivals are scary. i hope it doesn't exist

thanks for socializing. i had fun

yes

a bit of colour is all it took for my skin to start shedding again, waste of whole year worth of medication went to gorilaz ass

dad's and their obsession with 'always wear the helmet while riding' *sigh*

"everything about you is fine except the part where you hold onto things"

they are performing so well in practice session i don't know which one is better or worse this year.

there are moments where my life like it's in turmoil just to realise it's just me who's spinning in circles.