bullshitting to all

and do you say the same thing to every girl you date?

the only naive thing i did is blindly loving a stranger. I fucking have had your fucking name even in my prayers, i have wrote a hundred pages about you and built a million dreams...only for you to wipe it off casually by saying "she was just obsessed with me". duh... is it this easy for you to shatter everything.

so yeah, now it officially ends. because unfortunately a very stupid self of mine was kinda very close to fix it. but youre unfixable. i would highly appreciate you deleting everything that is associated to me. and respect my privacy atleast if not me. and i wish, we never meet irl. this was the worst phase of my life. i loved you, and i regret loving you.

wear your fucking ego as your crown. i do not care at all. chase shambhavi or whoever, i do not care. and before you question how messed up i am, you must know that when everybody tells you the same thing, you must try to give it a thought. and today i say the same, your ego and tactics will fucking ruin you one day.

I was never naive and vulnerable, I just gave you too much space to push me down. I was never like this with anybody, This is never who I was.

nd what the fuck do i do with this?

I HATE YOU LITERALLY. never come back, never for god sake. i have had enough of you now, enough of you forever. i would never want to get into this relationship ever again and experience the same shit, same humiliation and toxicity again.

you have never accepted me for how i am, and i kept listening to every fucking thing you said, i should have realised it. my fragile personality is far more better than your multi sided one. a strangers opinion might bring huge differences in your life but you couldn't care more about the person you love? or maybe, pretended to love.

okay i hate you. would have made things 100 times easier for both of us now. after all this is what you wanted. i have never hated anyone ever, but you. How can you be so two faced, 15 days ago you wanted to have me back and later you didn't? There is a huge problem with your brain.

I fucking have shed so many tears for you, because of you. Bro have you ever even cared, now i doubt every fucking thing you have ever said to me. WHY DID I EVEN damnit.

you fucking dont even deserve love. I was always afraid youd repeat the history, the same thing that you did with shraddha, but duh you did it worse this time. the fuck did i even do to face this side of you? you are selfish, you only care about yourself. i knew this from the very day you told me how you ruined ayush's relationship or everybody's for that matter, jus because you wanted to fit in.

I lost so many people just because i kept defending you and taking your side, and in return , this is what i get? you tell people that you never happened to love me? oh my god.

tumhe itna dhong karne ki zarurat nahi thi tbh. you never had to try hard to love me, you could have just said you aren't interested anymore and left. you did not have to put everything on me and tell me how i dont fix my life and how insecure i am and make me insecure about myself just to escape this relationship.

Dude, this is out of pure hatred. which I NEVER thought i'd do. I was so fucking blinded in admiring you that I never saw you. you have just ruined me, over and over again and oh my, i appreciate how well you get the audacity to say "dont put this on me", "dont play the victim card", just to escape getting blamed for things you do. i invested every fucking self of me on you, I really really really wished and prayed for it to work and I am so disgusted that I wanted "US" to work out and to stay together forever. everything happens for good and i guess, this happened for the best. I am sorry that you loved someone else and you never found her in me but ATLEAST ONCE you could have cared about not breaking my heart? If you would have told me, its just for fun, I WOULD HAVE NEVER taken this seriously. ironically, you found me through a channel, you made yourself a channel and then a channel was your problem? my complains were your problem? my vulnerability was your problem? like seriously suraj? tumhari problem infact kabhi ye sab thi hi nahi, you YOURSELF are your biggest problem. your attitude is the issue. Bhai, the person with whom i promised to stay even if the whole world turns their back to him, turned his back to me? wow.

hmm

“narcissistic” “egocentric” “lacking empathy” “incapable of love” “self consumed” “careless” "selfish" "prideful" "inexpressive"

a gesture you can never forget and avoid

I am a secret that you can never hide

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