As you guys are aware I was away for months and been quiet.
I took time off to reset my dopamine, rebuild my nervous system, reconnect with my body and actually remind myself to what’s the purpose for all the grinding I did for
Today,I finally opened my laptop after 6 months.
During those months. I knew I had to fix my FOMO. I wasn’t online but i still had friends who told me some onchain plays that mooned - it wasn’t easy for me to hear these things when im not in and with the intense FOMO
The problem I had was the FOMO along with the thinking of - I MUST BE IN EVERY WINNING PLAYS.
And yes, along the journey when the whole pumpfun meme cycle ran it felt extremely good, money flooded in and my ego also grew.
At one point, I forgot who I truly was as I tied my identity to calling the winning plays and making money.
There’s a clarity that only comes when you step away long enough to remember who you are without charts, positions, PnL, alerts and adrenaline.
Being in crypto means being surrounded by money 24/7.
That’s powerful but also dangerous if you lose perspective.
During the heights of the cycle, being down on a meme for $300k was “nothing” and I legit didn’t give a crap becusse I know how easy is to be made in this space.
I started making friends with normies during these months and for the first time I got my perspective back in line as I learnt there are girls I know who work 6 days a week for 8-10 hours and get paid $5k a month, eating out for them is like a total big deal. Having a chanel handbag is like life changing for them. For me, that’s a total shock because if I wanted to buy a handbag, watch etc.. I just go In to the store on a random Monday afternoon just because, I can.
But I felt completely numb. I stopped appreciating all the things and even people around me.
Every conversation was boring for me. I only wanted to talk about the next play, if they don’t talk about it - it was a useless conversation.
The only thing that excited me was seeing the numbers on my portfolio increase
I realized I totally lost touch of reality.
Here’s some truth most people don’t want to admit:
There is no point making money
if you’re too stressed to enjoy it,
too anxious to rest,
too numb to feel,
too busy to live,
or too disconnected to love.
Money is meant to expand your life, not replace it.
During this break, I remembered how good it feels to:
– wake up without urgency
– move my body without performance
– sleep without guilt
– create without pressure
– be present without distraction
I thought to fix the boredom I was feeling I had to do the most mundane shit like super low ROI stuff, such as getting groceries, cooking, painting, making friends with normies etc…
But it worked.
So what I learnt these months…
The real wealth is not money.
The real wealth is capacity.
Capacity to feel, enjoy, be present and build without burning out.
If your nervous system is fried, your decision-making is compromised.
If your identity is tied to PnL, your self-worth becomes fragile.
That’s when people revenge trade, over-leverage, over-work and self-sabotage.
So I’m coming back differently.
No more chasing, no more forcing, no more proving.
Just aligned execution, patience, clarity and respect for timing.
Moving forward, it’s not about how much I can make.
It’s about:
– sustainability
– clarity
– emotional neutrality
– longevity
So here we go again… but this time, with a more regulated nervous system. I guess this also aligns with where we are at in the market cycle,
slow = good ✅
Let’s continue this wealth journey without losing ourselves 🤍🤍🤍