𝐏𝐔𝐌𝐀 𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐅𝐄𝐒𝐒 🦖

{\__/} ( • - •) /つ つ ✎ ᴘᴜꜱʜ ᴍᴀᴘɪ ᴍꜰ : • ───── ⋆✩⋆ ───── • ➛ From : mario ➛  To : pinat 💌  message: its kinda crazy to think tht one year ago, i was still celebrating this day with u, and now im going through it alone, two years of celebrating things tgt, sharing rndom lil moments, going from university to work, growing through so many versions of ourselves, and somehow now we r just 2 people who used to know each other so deeply, thank u for being there through those days, nat, honestly, i almost forgot ur voice and nme at one point, not cuz u meant nothing, but cuz i was trying so hard to teach myself how to live without u, and somehow, i still ended up thinking bout u, i heard u didnt want to see me in bndung, the place u once told me was one of the most beautiful places, and i wont lie, that one stayed in my mind, ive already been to bndung twice, and maybe a small part of me was still hoping that somehow, by some random coincidence, id see u somewhere, not cuz i expected u to come back, but cuz there was still a part of me that wnted one last accidental moment with the person who once meant everything to me, our relationship left a pretty big scar on me, but it also left one of the biggest lessons ive ever learned, if u ever read this, just know that after everything we went through, i still tried to reach out, maybe i didnt know how to say everything properly, maybe we both changed too much, but the intention was there. and now, i think i hve to let that chapter stay where it belongs, i genuinely hope u are happy with ur new partner, nat, i hope he treat u gently, understand u, support ur dreams, and give u the kind of peace i maybe couldnt give u back then, i hope ur future is full of good things, good ppl, beautiful places, and moments that make u feel grateful to be where u are, as for me, ill carry what we had without pretending it never happened, i loved u once, and i think some part of that love will always exist quietly somewhere in me, not as a reason to hold u back, but as a reminder of how much ive grown, i end this year alone, but wherever life takes u, i hope it takes u somewhere beautiful and if bndung ever reminds u of someone who once looked for u in the crowd, maybe just know that person really did ─  ⋯ ─ ⋯ ─ ⋯ ─ ⋯ ─