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should I go out for a little walk to improve my mental health or jump off from the nearest bridge in my location and kms?

all my life I was nothing but a sinner, because my whole existence was a sin.

it hurts to look at something that you know you can't have it cuz it's like a sin.

من هیچوقت نمیتونم مووآن کنم، احتمالا باید بمیرم تا دیگه به اون موضوع فکر نکنم.

I would rather crashout so badly that makes me end up in a mental hospital instead of actually talking about it to someone.

there's a very thin line between being a people pleaser and being an attention whore. make sure to drive in line.

but honestly, I just wanted to be seen. I never tried to be the one who got looked at. your expectations will be lowered when you live and feel like shit.

the fact of trying to be seen is so humiliating, what did I do to deserve to point the gun to my forehead for you to notice me?

I'm both present and absent at the same time. you may see me, but I'm nothing but just a hollow.

2:35 and I will run like a girl until my body gives out and is eaten by this soil. you claim is yours, let me get swallowed by this earth and be remembered as good.

I love this so much, I will let it kill me.

1:21 they don't know the fucking half of it, I will reclaim my anger for the last time and accept this for the first. they're inebriated, and I'm a writer. words won't stop until the ink runs through my veins again.

we get used to waiting so good that we don't get hyped about anything like we used to. it's about time, and it's too late.

all I can do is wait, and I'll wait until my heart doesn't beat and my lungs don't filter the air and my eyes go blurry and my ears don't catch a sound and my veins don't pump the blood anymore.