اگزیستانسیال

7:07 I'll be a lonely child forever.

5:53 when it all comes down like the walls of your eyes collapsing, I cave in to primal fears, lay to rest my escapism, and bury the past again.

giving others what I myself was denied. I was nailed to the roots of my tree. afeeling growing in my dazed mind, there's nothing in my heart left to offer. I'll be a lonely child forever.

سالی که گذشت خیلی survival mode بود.

امسال میخوام از اشتباهاتم درس بگیرم و بهتر از قبل انجام‌شون بدم، شاید بلاخره یکی‌شون دلیل مرگم شد.

متاسفم اما من به یک لبخند و یک خوشحالی طولانی‌تر از ۵ثانیه‌ی اول تحویل سال نیاز دارم.

sorry for ruining your vibes yall, but tomorrow will be the same shity day as yesterday and the past year that we moved on from it.

crashing out is so funny, like I was browsing through my pinterest, and all of a sudden, I'm on the floor and moaning like a wounded dog about the things I had done in my meaningless life.

I'm not suicidal but I'd be so grateful if I don't see the sunrise of the next day.

I don't belong here. I don't belong in any timeline possible, even the nothingness doesn't want me.

imagine how fucked up you can be that you can't even have a good time in your scenarios in your head.

I couldn't take the reality anymore, so I put on my big boy headphones on and escape to my imaginary world inside my head.

today is the same day of torturing my existence as always, but with some extra hype.

5:09 self-destruction, I'll die soon⚠️.

2:14 alcoholic and drug addicted. I hope soon I'll get drunk and die. alcohol and drugs help me get rid of these thoughts⚠️.