Manic.

Okay, first of all if those are your "problems” then you should've stayed at your father's house. And second, if your pain is really worse than mine, then why am I the one who needs pills just to get some fucking sleep, while you’re resting easily in your fancy bed?

I hate it when they hit me with that "oh, why do u think your life is so hard? no kids, no husband, no bills to worry about every month" and all that other garbage

when someone makes fun of my past, but they don’t know what it was like to lose my whole world at such a young age

Mother I have sinned

Poor me, the things I’ve experienced

And I’m going to be drunk again tonight

I was drunk last night

I swear

I’m gonna celebrate every single day of Moharam

And hurting you was not a part of my plan or my intentions But I was immature, I guess I had to learn some lessons We grew apart and our lives went in different directions, and there's a lot of responsibilities that I neglected I had a lot that was bottled inside, couldn't express it

And this pain won't leave, I can feel the depression It's taking over my body, feels like I'm always stressing Doctor told me I should sleep, but I'm always restless

I lay awake at night and think, my thoughts are relentless I need a moment to breathe, I need a moment to vent this I seem to be the only person that I play pretend with And when I turn the music off, what am I really left with huh?

Apologies don't mean a thing if you don't ever fix it I love what I do but it's not what I expected This industry is not your friend, well it's my perspective Sometimes the closest people to you make you feel protected, but those are the same people that hurt you most and leave you guessing Some people say nobody's perfect but expect perfection How you supposed to find the answer if you don't ask the question? Sometimes I look into the mirror and talk to my reflection When I go home and turn the music off, what am I left with?

I just feel offended, I just feel defensive Why don't you accept me? I just need acceptance Time is of the essence, don't like how we spend it You just want perfection, I need you to let me Let me go

They don't want me happy, they don't want me fixed They don't want me better, they just want me broke Talk but never listen, at least I admit it Blackout all my vision, watching me diminish That's my favorite past time, I know nothing different Tell me something different, I don't see the difference