Nowhere

for forgetting that i was worth saving too

i owe myself an apology for calling it strength to keep breaking

for forgiving too quickly and loving too loudly when all i wanted was someone to meet me halfway

for staying quiet when my chest was on fire

i owe myself an apology for carrying people who wouldn’t do the same for me

Can’t help having nightmares

Ignoring pain

I look like my dad so bad

I was staring at a recent photo of me

It aches like hell

Like I’ve released the demons

But since that night I haven’t been the same

Since that night im not myself

Time hasn’t been kind to me at all

Time wasn’t kind to me at all

With no answers

Thoughts coming as a flood of questions

5am again