𝐐𝐮𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐝𝐚

Feels like it’s rained in my head for a hundred days Feels like it’s rained in my head for a hundred days Stare in the mirror and I look for another face Stare in the mirror and I look for another face And I get so tired of puttin’ out fires and makin’ up lies Checkin’ my eyes for some kinda light, but nothing’s inside And it feels like it’s rained in my head for a hundred days And I say I hate you when I don’t Push you when you get too close It’s hard to laugh when I’m the joke But I can’t do this on my— Only you could save me from my lack of self-control Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go I’ve asked for forgiveness a hundred times I’ve asked for forgiveness a hundred times Believed it myself when I halfway apologized Believed it myself when I halfway apologized And it’s not unfair, I’m asking for prayers, but nobody cares Goin’ nowhere like fallin’ downstairs while everyone stares No one’s there when I’ve asked for forgiveness a hundred times And I say I hate you when I don’t Push you when you get too close It’s hard to laugh when I’m the joke But I can’t do this on my— Only you could save me from my lack of self-control Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go No, I’m just takin’ a shot, ah Maybe I’m just too eager, oh Maybe I lost the plot, ha I used to pity some people I said they were missing a spine Yeah, maybe the problem is ego Maybe the, maybe the problem is mine Really, I’m fine Don’t get too intimate, don’t get too curious This is just feelin’ like it’s not that serious Stare at the ceiling, feeling delirious Fuck all your empathy, I want your fury ‘Cause I will just Tell you I’m better, then, better, then Spit out my medicine, medicine, ayy Drunk on adrenaline, ‘drenaline, ayy Say I hate you when I don’t Push you when you get too close It’s hard to laugh when I’m the joke But I can’t do this on my— Only you could save me from my lack of self-control And I won’t make excuses for the pain I caused us both So thank you for always standing by me even though Sometimes bad things take the place where good things go