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𝖻𝖾 𝗃𝗈𝗂𝗇𝖾𝖽! 🔠

‌ ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ you ‌don't have to read this. I've been trying to try. To make an effort despite knowing I could not. There has been many times I considered myself as a failure. Not to my family or my friends, but to the whole world. Do I feel guilty? I don't even know anymore. There are mistakes I have made. Ones I can't run away from. I have to face their consequences every single day while trying to tell myself I'll be okay though I know I will not. Not like this. I can't go back and I can't go further either. I honestly believe that I have no right and I don't deserve to be even treated as a precious being. Since when have I felt this way i don't know. I'm writing these here, even though I know I won't feel better I never will. But I wonder if anyone else lives like this, so consumed by guilt and the past? I tried forgetting. And to some point, I did. Or I thought I did. But the very moment I close my eyes, I just fall back into the abyss I have made for myself. And it's all useless. Everything is long gone and I'm longing for something I was never meant to have.

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