Sage (t1/2)

I already feel like i said too much and its my own damn channel I have been relying on 3 medications just to barely get up and go to work and maybe if im lucky i have the energy to do something else like cleaning my room or eating

Im just so knee deep in my own cesspool of a mind i can’t stand the thought of going through anything remotely emotionally painful

I do think a lot of the channel owners here are cool Such as https://t.me/nooneknowwhoiam https://t.me/tomatopapper https://t.me/luaics https://t.me/lostintranslation20 https://t.me/al0la19 https://t.me/iwnaseenirv https://t.me/yapyapyapyap12 https://t.me/antl3rsqueen https://t.me/Some_Mercy

Solitude is better for me as a person with BPD, i have unintentionally hurt a lot of people either directly or indirectly I am very aware of who i am and what my behavior conveys

I hate feeling lonely but i like being alone

I do realize its a nihilistic view of things, but i have been through this cycle so much its getting irritating

Or establishing something that will end with me being hurt over dumb things

Thinking about it maybe i just dont want to form any connections because i know how fast i lose interest in people and things Maybe i dont want to establish something that will eventually feel like a chore to me

I guess talking to brain-dead people all day at work really takes a toll on your social battery

I know i might come off as arrogant or rude to some people but i just cant stand online conversations its so so boring to me

Istg im not ثكيل i really do think you’re cool i just cant man

Like i chose to talk, why do i not want to talk

I dont remember the last time i saw a notification from anyone without feeling a vice grip in my chest

:/

ليش هيج هسة خليتوني انشرهة واسمعهة خمس مرات وطبيت بدوارة ما ينطلع منهة

Meh