Sad

It's like I'm a in a show just performing through some else's eyes

I think my mind's empty And I'm just trying to make it full Or keep it stuffed in some sort of ways just to keep myself sane.

try to change but nothing in me moves Every promise I make to myself breaks in silence I tell myself tomorrow will be different But tomorrow looks exactly the same I'm too deep inside my own darkness So deep that light feels unfamiliar I didn't fall into it by accident I stayed long enough for it to become home I wanted to see the world clearly So I walked into the shadows on purpose Now everything makes sense in the worst way Pain explains people Cruelty explains love Loneliness explains truth I cant be soft anymore I cant pretend hope still works on me Even when I want to change Even when I scream at myself to become better My darkness answers louder It wraps around my thoughts It shapes how I see everything I see the world not as it should be But as it really is Cold selfish and temporary And maybe I am broken