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In paradisum Deducant te angeli In tuo adventu Suscipiant te martyres Maybe I fell into despair I saw the gates behind the mountain's glare I gazed at the realms of deep unknown A crescent moon above the silent snow My dreams, as pure as one can be Ebb of my thoughts, stream under a frozen sea Powerless feelings imprisoned in myself Maybe I fell into despair A derelict soul in a body accurst Pitiful, weak creature I'm lost in a lightless, desolate place Left alone dreaming, forever dreaming Through the gloom I wander Trying to deny a cold and hopeless reality Alas, my anger is useless And so is my own existence I see myself walking endlessly Amongst naked stones and ghastly trees A dismal sun is a poor guide, as my path Won't end until the night When the sullen red sun rises I put my head between my hands and pour Remorseful tears Over the wreck that is now my life Repentance comes but it's always too late What happened to all these years? Time flew away in a blink Sometimes I wonder what could have been It’s been so rough these days To find the strength to carry on Enclosed in myself I feed an ancient sadness A burden much bigger than me Crimson oceans I see As blood runs from my eyes Still I yearn for deliverance Watching through the window The tedious barren plains How many complaints echoed through these lands? I live under cobwebs and garlands black Countless sleepless nights Have triumphed of my will Wounds are carved into my soul How I wish to run, how I wish to escape Leave away my human husk See it crumble to dust and disappear While my spirit flies above the smoking pyre Finally free from unfulfilled desires