VERIFIED VOICE ❤️💭

I'm mentally not okay☺️and I haven't been okay in a really long time . I thought after some time I'd will eventually get better buh it's been years and I'm still not okay☺️. I have these terrible thoughts in my head that I know a normal person's shouldn't have🤦🏿‍♂️. I'm so tired😩. I'm tired of feeling lost, numb and worthless. I'm tired of constantly fighting to survive. I'm only here for a few people that care about me and even though I have people I still feel alone🤦🏿‍♂️. The loneliness I feel never go away. I'm always asking myself why I'm I like this ??😣 Why can't I be happy🤗?? Maybe happiness isn't just for me. I need to stop lying to myself and accept that I will never, be okay ☺️ That my life is meaningless and the terrible thoughts will eventually win🤦🏿‍♂️😔