اگزیستانسیال

and I know music is the sound of humans, I mean humans I KNOW them and wished to be unknown for each other.

I need to listen to music to not hear the sound of humans.

I'm God's bravest soldier. (left the house without music)

sometimes, I wanted to be as stupid as a kid and think about why my shadow follows me instead of rethinking the whole creation and existence of human beings.

our generation realized things way faster than others, and that's the reason why we fucked up all the way down earlier than usual.

and I fear for the day that the fear of doing it and be enough brave to do it gets in a line.

it's getting weaker every day to not think about it and more stronger to picking up the kitchen knife and pointing it through my chest.

it's not a need or want, but it's a thought that haunt every second of my miserable life.

split my mind, waste of time. left behind, collapsed life➖.

2:57 my life lost from being buried in thick sheets. concave me in my dreams and send me back to sleep. I lost myself back there, inside an empty space. I wanna go back, I wanna go back, just let me go back, just let me go.

I survive every day for the fact of getting closer to death each day goes by.