☁️Numbivago☁️

someone on tiktok wrote “the world feels harder to exist everyday.” and this line has been stuck with me since the day that i read it. so this is a gentle reminder that you are doing great. at the end of the day, the people and the little things that remind you to breathe and live are the only ones that should matter most.

Me : I’m done with her she crazy bro Her: come outside I wanna talk me. Me :

As much as I hate to admit it, I really am still figuring things out. And while I know it's perfectly fine, sometimes, it keeps me awake at night. I can't help but wish for the world to stop. Not for too long—just enough for me to catch up to everyone else and pick up the dreams I lost along the way. Or maybe a little rewind to undo all the bad decisions made, and let go of the things that I now know won't end up working, anyway. But I know that would be cheating. That's not how the world works.

Here’s to the empty beer bottles. To the muffled cries in our pillows, and the silent wishes in our bedroom walls. Here’s to the masks we learned to wear so well no one could see through them anymore. One day, things will be okay. Maybe not the best and certainly could still use some better days, but things will finally start to make sense and and we’ll look back with a smile, knowing it wasn’t easy and every fall hurt like hell, but we kept going, anyway. .

You see, life isn't fair and I know that already. It's just that sometimes, I wonder about what it would be like if I was given the chances I know I deserve. I ponder about how bright some things would have been, the sad smile on my face lingering for a little while.

I've always envied those given the chance to fail, because I have so many things that I wanted to try—things that I know can shine, but the world only gave me the opportunity for one chance. The weight is too much that if I stumble and fall, there will be no getting back on my feet.

I've always wondered about what things might be like if I just stopped caring for a moment and did the things I've always wanted to do. If I just stopped daydreaming and actually took a leap of faith, completely ignoring the weight of the world on my shoulders. I often imagine how liberating the free fall will be.

my night demon after he heard me cry for 2 hours

Thinking about deleting all my social media and be gone