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well, its true. you are with her

it takes you three months to get over me and only another three months to find someone new. am i that easy to be replaced?

i still use the plushie you gave me :)

of course i call you and of course you wouldnt pick up anymore :)

you can be happy with other's reality without questioning your own destiny

i feel better today, by day. i no longer missing him badly

i love the idea of having long hair but realistically short hair is more ideal for me

things i dont know about grieve before. first, you grieve of losing them. next, you grieve the future you dont get to build together. after, you grieve of knowing they have someone new. this and that. one after another. not just one single grief but many comes afterwards.

its used to be just 100 before.....

wow, for the first time i checked how many days since the day and turns out its already 200 days 🙂

you have deleted our shared album. you have deleted all our pictures and all my videos. you have deleted all our chats in every platform. you have blocked me on all social medias. you have burned the wallet i gave you, alongside the letters i write for you :) you have moved on with all your means. :') while im here, sometimes find my way back to the memories and sit with them longer than i should....

as a writer, you never know how much you keep everything inside until you start writing. and suddenly its a whole page of everything in between

healing also includes crying, mental breakdown, random sadness and grieving. healing means accepting that you will miss them for a long time and have a hard time to move on. you are not going to be okay on certain days and maybe thats fine too. its hard, but you left with no choice except to keep moving forward :)

i dont think you miss me. you are just happier living without my presence right? you are more peaceful living with my absence now.....

why when im far from you, i feel so close but now im closer i feel so far.....

my biggest worry is i couldnt find someone as good as him again next. what if he is the last person who is that good i ever met...?

"do what makes you happy." "but what if nothing makes me happy anymore....?" :'

its raining heavily now and all i can think about is you

i fear one day i will be erased and forgotten from your life :)

saya rindukan awak. saya masih rindukan awak dan saya tatau sampai bila saya akan tetap rindu