Sage (t1/2)

Be decent or leave me the fuck alone

Bottom line

Only when my illness envelops me and I impulsively take my own life on a random Wednesday, suddenly it will dawn that it was never really a competition It was me clinging to life until my last nail breaks And up until i became an adult, everyone else either judged me or just stood and watched

The problem is projection People compare their current situation to mine, if a condition is brought up, suddenly its a competition of who suffered more, they want to prove they suffered more than me so so bad They start resorting to being hateful or trolling, they probably think its justified for them because they were sad once too And god forbid someone goes through something worse, that doesn’t exist, only they went through hell and back

Not taking the magnitude of what i’m going through seriously is what bothers me the most Withdrawal are hitting me so hard i had to use an inhaler yesterday because of how slow my breathing was getting, i had to take two Xanax pills for the panic attacks i was getting And you see me using the inhaler and barely walking And you decide to haggle تشوفني هيج وتفكر خلي اعاملة علة الف دينار

اذا اني صارلي عشر ساعات واكف علة رجلية ومبين علية والإرهاق شنو من دماغ عندك يكلك خوش فكرة انو تكعد تستفزني وتسوي نفسك متسمع من اكلك سعر الدوة ومن افهمك استخدامة عود دتشاقة ومن تشوفني ما اضحك وياك تكلي لتضوج دنشاقة وياك شنو الصعب بانو ياما تنلصم وتنجب لو تصير ادمي؟ رح اخذ منك فلوس زايدة اذا صرت بشر؟

Whenever you have a small interaction with a person, do you ever wonder what their life looks like after your small conversation? You might see them once a week, you might never even see them again Do you ever realize that this person’s life will go on, only difference is that you’re not there to witness it It confuses me why wouldn’t you just leave the slightest bit of a nice gesture for them A smile, a compliment, a simple thank you might boost their mood for the day Why in hell would you go out of your way to make their life more miserable by being an entitled childless grown ass person

Im extremely dizzy and my head feels hot

I feel like throwing up my guts

I feel like shit

The only brands on the market are extended release dawg im so fucked

Im so fucking cooked

Did some research and apparently these withdrawal symptoms last up to 4 months Nice

The holy trinity

Could last up to two weeks idk we will see